it's been so long. it's not that i don't want to blog.
my mind has just been zip-darting in a million different directions. and my body has had to be up and at 'em at WAY too many places.
so durand is over now. it got pretty intense toward the end, as all productions do. bad attitudes, stress, time crunches, frustrating situations. but opening night came. and as all productions do, it magically pulled together and i was so very proud of my hard work and of the inspiring students. i have become quite close with some of those kids and will really miss them. i'm not sure what the future holds, now that amanda won't be returning. i do know that i was not ready to say goodbye.
things at the day job have been sublime. i'm doing a good job, which feels good. i feel like i am making a difference at this school and in the lives of my students. my lessons are (for the most part) interesting, diverse, and well-developed. my principal loves me, which is probably the best part. my facilities are amazing, i have a lot of freedom, and i am surrounded by ALL of the arts everyday. i feel like i am in the PERFECT place right now; it's so fulfilling.
and i just found out that i'm already re-hired for next year! no questions asked, no paperwork, no waiting to "see", nothin. just keep on getting paid all summer and show up in the fall. nice.
it's SPRING BREAK!!! i have virtually NO plans and that's totally cool.
i have an extremely exciting job prospect for this summer, but don't have all of the information yet, so i won't disclose until i know more.
i have been doing some good shopping lately. got some clearance stuff at target: a red and black flowered winter-to-spring transition dress and an swingy, spandex black dress for summer (awesome). i still need to find some dressy black heels for the wedding. something open-toe that doesn't have an ankle strap (bad news for us short-legged girls). everytime i've planned to go look for shoes, i wind up wandering off the planned path.
like tonight, for example. i decided to go shoe shopping, but went to the goodwill first.
WELL.
i got lots of stuff - good sales! pj pants, long sweatshirt, a few hippie shirts, 3 pashmina scarves, 2 tshirts for kyle, a wide, burnt sienna belt, a couple of costume pieces for the upcoming play (the other side of the wall) that my advanced theater class is putting on, a gray plaid skirt for spring, a beige shrug, a white peasant shirt to wear to sunday morning breakfasts (or humid roadtrips), and a structured, zippered jacket in black, to name a few. yeah, jackpot. it's so nice that spring (and eventually summer) is here. i am eager to stop thinking about sweater dresses and suede boots and am definitely feeling ready for skinny capris, gypsy skirts, and shirtdresses.
except i'm almost 26. and even though my weight had remained relatively stable and healthy, it still doesn't change the fact that my undereye circles have definitely not gotten any less purple. or that my skin hasn't loosened a little. or that i have a rapidly growing spider vein on my leg. or that i just don't look 17 anymore. it's really starting to get to me. keeping myself feeling presentable and confident just gets harder and harder. ugh. enough of this; i'm getting depressed.
then guess what: i finally got my industrial piercing tonight!
yes, it hurt. really bad at first.
i'm feeling okay right now, but i probably have a few painful weeks coming up.
i'm feeling more than okay now. i feel like i really have a lot of wonderful things in the future headed my way. i am all smiles, all optimistic, feeling everything fall into place.